Hi whimsygirl, Thanks for the insightful reply. The situation I'm in is so complicated, I can't even begin to think about the layers of complex things that would have to occur for this business to be a memory...Therapy can't be coming soon enough (next Tuesday PM)...MD visit tomorrow, and I'll ask him about anything that might test the serotonin and norepinephrine levels. I know one thing for sure, something just isn't right. And despite my reservations about it, I think I'm ready for medication again. Just hope that I can find the right one...nothing left to do right now but sleep at an inappropriate time...I'll drift off thinking about the serenity prayer. I'm actually doing something to change my situation by actively seeking other employment. Not sure how that is going to work out, but I'm working on it...again, thank you so much for the warm wishes and hugs. I wish you the same.