On saturday night I got arrested and charged with drug possesion I spent the night in jail and at about 2:30 was released thanx to my friends who bailed me out of jail, thing is they don't have enough to lock me up with, and every1 says I will get off free, but the thing is I very depressed about the whole situation, not scared just depressed. I feel that ever since it happened everybody has now abandoned me I know its not true but that the feeling I get, my mom took the whole thing real easy I lied to her and told her that it wasn't mine which she believed thank God for that one. I feel suicidal all over again and I wish that the feelings would go away, but they won't, one good thing came from all this though, now I have a dreaded phobia of prison and cops, I can't even think about going back inside a cell, cause if I do I will die in there, and cops I can't even face them without getting all panicky and wanting to run away. Life was hard enough now I have this too, my next court appearance will be on th 1st of September wish me luck guys, I will need it.