thank you for that...the other employment thing is something to shoot for...I'm down but I'm not out (how's that for a trite cliche?)...I'm doing the best I can to embrace the possibilities of the future without getting caught back into the negative thinking of depression...I contacted four of my colleagues who are all happy to be references for me. They know the quality of my mental health work...so that's a plus. I'll keep you all posted...I do know that this depression would lift if I had something good to report about this business endeavor...a great business, but one that I can't handle anymore due to lack of interest...someday I'll be able to say that I successfully closed it, and that, even better, someone bought it from me and is making it very successful. That's my "someday" wish for the future. I know it is all uncertain, even the next minute, but that's what I'm hoping for. And when I start thinking about hopeful future scenarios, the depression lifts just a little bit...