I went off meds 5 days ago thinking I was cured, being pissed off I was on an antipsychotic when I wasn't even psychotic, drank 2 of the 3 nights, didn't really eat, drank a lot of pepsi...well here I am lol. I feel physically exhausted, mentally drained and just plain slow. Made an *** of myself infront of my sister, who will in turn tell my mother, all because I thought I was above meds. Now I have to save face with them when I have tried so hard to hide it from them. I feel judged by them, that is why I usually don't pick up the phone when I am feeling like this. Last night I felt chatty and did I ever chat ugh.

So I started meds again this morning, started feeling really wired early today which is not usually like me. Normally I don't get all fidgety until mid afternoon. Scared me enough to take the damn pill. Of course since I haven't taken it in a few days it knocked me flat on my *** and I ended up sleeping so now tonight will be no fun boooooooo.

Words of advice, you aren't cured lol FML