Hi !

What you wrote touched me very much.

Last year, I worked at my local Historical Society. I was -paid minimum wage, it was a 6 months project. The Society can't pay for a full time Historian. Twas my 1st real job since quitting my PhD in 2000. I've found out how hard it was and how many shortcomings I had. Not that I could'nt intellectually do it, but because my inner social fears, very real fears which I have since my childhood...

Having to call some official people, this was the worst, babbling all the way, I wonder how I did it after all (had to call 6 former mayors from my town, asking them questions about their realisations, etc.).

Anyway, I know I have to adapt and discover my true self, not others dreams of what I should have been.

This forum is great, and it's somehow comforting to know I'm not alone...

Ty Carrie


Born in 1963 of French mom and Canadian dad. Studied a lot (Majors in History, Theology, M.A. in Sociology). Jobless for now. Just been diagnosed Borderline.

I wonder where it will go from here... But I'll try nonetheless.