Upon further reflection, I'm starting to suspect that more motivation revolves around wanting to be special in her eyes than I originally thought. What does this mean? Or say about me? I do have a habit from my past of doing things so people will like/love me or trying to pattern myself in a way that will make myself more likable.

But there is definitely just a huge THANK YOU factor too in wanting to give her the gift.

I am not sure if she accepts gifts, but for some reason I do not think she would outright reject it. She does have some trinkets around her office.

Idk. I am so torn and just feeling like a horrible person for having an instinct for manipulation to get people to like me. Maybe I won't take the gift in but will still bring the whole thing up.