kiki I had to say goodbye to T1 and I was very attached to her. I loved/love her. I looked up to her like I would a cherished grandmother or a mom that anyone would love to have. She was my T for 3 1/2 years and I saw her just about every week for those three years. I moved on from her because I needed a T that could bring things to the next level and I needed some one who specialized in trauma. At my second to last session I brought a letter I wrote to her and read it out loud to her. I told her the things I wanted to say to her but never did (I liked her office decorations etc..). I also told her how much she meant to me (something she knew already because I told her the L word before). I told her what I learned and what I would reflect on when I'm no longer seeing her (ironically we live in a small town and I see her around town a lot but never speak). I feel like she liked me and respected me as much as I did her and the last session was hard. I 'lost it' during the last few minutes of the session and she read me a quote from a book and gave me a goodbye hug at the end (the hug I always wanted). My T1 will always have a special place in my heart. She even helped me in my quest to find a new T and now I'm with T2 who is amazingly gifted, smart and experienced.

Many hugs and as one door closes another door opens. Give yourself some time to grieve. For me it was a true loss.