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Jul 05, 2012, 09:14 PM
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Member Since: Jun 2011
Location: Las Cruces, NM
Posts: 2
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Hello to all! I am new to Psych Central and I am new to this forum! I lost my precious Angel...my beautiful mother almost 4 years ago and it just doesn't get any easier to get on with life!! I mean, it's gotten a little better. I can get out of bed and not freak out! I can leave the house more now with having anxiety and panic attacks. I can listen to music and enjoy it! I can spend quality time with my son and enjoy being with him and I am grateful for the blessing that he is!! I just don't have that joy for life like I did when she was here!! She made everything beautiful! I miss everything about her and I am so lonely for HER! I feel bad because I can't go to her grave and I really don't like to think about her because I get so depressed....I mean really depressed! I know I need to let her go and be happy and grateful for the time that God gave me with her....it's just so hard to let go!! My heart is broken and I can't seem to fix it!! I don't know what will fix it! My heart aches for her smile, her hugs, her laugh, her smell, her everything!! Oh God, I need help!!! She was my Angel here on earth and now she is my Angel in Heaven! I love you mommy to the moon and back again and around the sun and back again!!   
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Myshell
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