Well, i'm sure this has all been said about a million times already, but here goes...again.

To be honest, the way i see my life right now, I have absolutely no reason to live. I'm not going to go kill myself, but if someone were to point a gun at my head and threaten to shoot, i'd probably egg them on. I have never had friends, a decent family, or anything even closely resembling a relationship. No talents or anything that makes me special or unique in any way. The only reason I get up in the morning is because I have a job and feel responsible for keeping it.

I can't really have fun anywhere. At the risk of sounding self-centered, I will say that I have never really had a high point as of yet. Im still just a kid, but I feel like i might as well be 80. I don't see myself as having any sort of future. I've spent my whole life putting others before myself, making sure others are happy and content, but I don't know how to do that for myself.

there's a lot more but i'd rather bore you with that some other time. long story short, i feel ugly as hell on the inside and out, I have nothing going for me. I feel empty and worthless, and I can't think of one good reason why I should continue with my life. And NO i'm not suicidal, just feeling depressed