Oh I hate the phone. I do a lot of calling to tell people their books are in and such. When I first started I would stand there hyperventalating and trying to get the nerve up for each call. Now it is no sweat. I even make calls for the other people who are still afraid too...come to think of it, it seems like making calls is difficult for most people who haven't done it much. I still have moments when I just can't call someone. I will have made 20 calls in a row just fine then bam suddenly I can't do the next one. No rhyme or reason to it. *zen smiles at the silliness of it all* So yeah, I can relate to the phone thing. The people I call are just everyday people, not high muckity mucks so I can just imagine what you went through.
Carrie

<font color=green>But the implicit and usually unconscious bargain we make with ourselves is that, yes, we want to be healed, we want to be made whole, we're willing to go some distance, but we're not willing to question the fundamental assumptions upon which our way of life has been built, both personally and societally.--Bill Plotkin, Soulcraft