im sorry i was just rambling. Im just tired of fighting every day over stupid things. and the family that im talking about are my inlaws. i dont neccisarily want to leave them. but on the same note i feel i have to make myslef happy. and im not sure if i would be happier here or gone. i love my inlaws. the only reason in trying soo hard is becuase i love my inlaws. my 5 year old sister in law would be tore to peices if i left and i cant do that to her. and well i guess i love my husband but on the same note i dont think i can handle anymore mental abuse. and control. its soooo confusing. and i know it. im just hopeing i can find someone who has been through the same thing. and can posibly shine some light.