Not doing to good right now. I tried going to bed earlier and was almost asleep when I just started crying. I started thinking about my mom and what gonna happen when I get older and she isnt there anymore and i started crying like a baby, this is something used to do a lot but not since i was like 8. im really scared now, im afraid something is going to happen to her and i dont want that to happen cause i cant imagine being alive when shes not. im sad and scared and cant go to sleep anymore, im contemplating waking my mom up to make sure shes okay but i dont want to bother her. i feel like a mess rightt now