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When I am hypomanic, it's the money spending and sexual things I do that I end up regretting when I come down. I think I am dealing with those for the first time ever as I've caught myself in a HM state for the first time ever. Knowing, I hope, will help me to stop short of doing things I regret.
When I am depressed I isolate and push others away by being mean or telling them to just forget I exist. I've ruined a great relationship a few times over doing this. My hope is that the recent therapy I've gone through will help me to deal with depression a lot better than I have the past year.
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‘Cause when I’m dead and I’m gone / Just burn me up to the sun
I got a couple more years here / I want nothing but you, dear
Yeah, when I stare at the ceiling / Five o’clock in the morning
I got one thing that’s on my mind / Got so much to do before we die, if I survive
So live it up, live it real good / As you should
We both know, we could be gone tomorrow
So tell me what keeps you up at night / Keeps you from closing your eyes, Keeps you alive
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