I'm so glad someone else brought this up! I have awful S.A dreams on a regular basis and sometimes i wake up and am in a hazy dream like state for hours afterwards, this is when i self-harm, to try a feel something. I have very morbid dreams too about dead children etc. Thing is in waking life, i have very little memory of any abuse taking place, just this awful feeling that it did. Accompanied with issues with intimacy and medical examinations.

You're not alone, purpleflyingmonkeys.