(((Rose))),

I know it is very hard working through PTSD AND working at the same time. It is like working "two" jobs at once, one is all about our inner struggle that can break us apart at any time, and the other is maintaining composure around others in a work place environment that "can" be challenging. And any sympathy at all is not really available, except when we can sit with our T, or come to PC.

The important thing to notice is that at least you are at a point where you can identify the triggers to their origin. That is progress verses just falling a part for what seems to be no reason and thinking you are just plain nuts or something.

Then you have to work on developing ways to "not allow" the emotions to overcome you. And that can be a challenge and that black board exercise helps a lot with that.
But it really takes time to get yourself to the point where you can be much stronger in your ability to determine that what you are experiencing is not an immediate "threat" to you, "if" you work on "not letting it rule your emotions".

I think that it is great that you are putting this into words Rose and able to talk about it.

I know this is a challenge, I hear you. Keep trying to be patient with yourself and constantly allowing yourself to progress as best as you can.

(((Hugs))))
Open Eyes