To you, not to Alex, but to YOU, the person here:

(This may not look like support to some, but it is, and you know it is, and you know what I mean.)

Questions to ask yourself:

1.What drives you to play out this same scenario over and over again?
2. It helps you and serves a purpose for you in some way - do you know what that purpose is?
3.Your pain is so raw and deep and evident - what is the source of that pain? How can it be healed? How can WE help you heal it?

This - what happens here - doesn't help. If it did you would not have that need to go over it again and again, here and elsewhere. This just goes around and around and then fades to the background before something draws you back and it all begins again. What is it that TRULY help? What is it that will lay those demons to rest once and for all? What is it that will touch that pain deep in the centre of yourself and calm it, and soothe it in such a way that it be will more bearable for you to live with?

There has got to be a better way.