I've had a lot of problems lately just being happy, and being able to enjoy day to day life. Even when things are going well my anxiety gets in the way of just being happy. I dont trust people and have no faith in people or relationships including my own which really sucks.

Tonight I am meeting a friend of my brothers that he has asked to talk to me. He said she is amazing at helping people and really helped him when he was depressed and angry at the world.

I'm looking forward to meeting with her, as I really want to get help and I want things to change, so I guess I'm hopeful that talking to her might help.

But I just still have my doubts that things will ever change. And I'm so tired of feeling this way. I really want to be a happy independant person again, and I want to have trust in the people close to me, not worry about every little thing, and be able to enjoy life to the fullest again.

Thanks for reading