Sometimes when I'm down I like to shop online so I have something to look forward to, as stupid as whatever I'm buying is, it is something. It is different than "hypomanic" happy spending because during the up periods somehow I'm suddenly full of money and impulse and besides, shopping online then is annoying, it takes forever for things to arrive!!! When I'm down I'm well aware of every penny, just buying a delivery. Maybe even just ordering pizza.

Oh and the agoraphobia thing, I spent months locked up like that too but, exposure helps. Just dare yourself to take a short walk...see you won't fall to pieces.