((((All)))) thank you for your continued support and kind supportive words. I honestly feel embarrassed and a little ashamed for what I wrote here.

The past years of my life have been simply a huge struggle to survive. At one point I was barely alive The past few weeks without a T i have been coming here, reaching out, sharing and getting a lot of support...but today I feel that my post was supremely annoying!

I feel as if I am just hanging on...and my post came off more like whining and blaming others rather than taking responsibility by sharing some grand epiphany

I am sorry. Truly.

I will strive to write in a more hopeful, positive manner from hereonin and take responsibility for my actions and not put the ownness on others (in this instance, work matters). I will do better.

Thanks again for your care and supportive, kind, positive words. Even when I am a pain! You are the best!
Luv
R