((((((((((((learning)))))))))))))))) that sounds so confusing ... as though he is pulling and pushing at the same time and making it hard for you to know which way to turn; the pulling draws you in and makes you want more of it, more of him and the pushing hurts and hurts and hurts and leads to being pushed away. It's really hard to know if the pushing is deliberate or if it is just a problem with his communication skills or what is going on there *scratch* things i do know are ..... i want you to have a good therapist who will help you with all the things going on; who will know when to push appropriately and will encourage you to talk rather than talking over you.

why do you think it affects you so much? ......