...9 months ago...

...9 months ago on a day like any other day in the life of an active alcoholic...I started the day in the usual way...Chugging vodka on the way to work...For weeks prior to this day I had been drinking almost around the clock...I needed it to function...About 10:00 AM I ran out of vodka and needed to get some more and I did...By lunch time I was obviously drunk...At least thats what my boss told me...I was sent home...On the way home I continued to drink...Overwhelmed by fear I pulled into the Mall parking lot...continuing to drink my vodka...I decided to call a close AA friend and tell him I was dying...I was...My body couldn't handle the abuse much longer...The thought of drinking myself to death seemed like a much easier choice than walking back into AA...tail between my legs and admit my way didn't work...I stopped at Liquor World and bought 2 pints of vodka and went home...I made it through the first pint and started the second...when out of the blue I decide to call my sponser and tell him my plan...He told me he didn't think I was a good Idea but that it was my choice...he suggested detox and I knew it was only a matter of hours until the DT's would start and I would have a seizure...I said O.K...He told me to keep drinking until He could get me to detox and thats the last thing I remember until I woke up in detox the next day strapped to my bed...The nurse sitting next to me said she was up all night praying and watching over me...She told me I had a seizure and had my poor sponser not gotten me there when he did I would have died...Why I decided to make those calls I'll never know...Maybe somebody up there likes me...