Your story is heartbreaking. I am so sorry that he is leaving you in the lurch. In my opinion he has not grown up and is still acting like a teenager. All fun and no sense of responsibility. No one is perfect, but any man who would ditch you like that is seriously lacking in responsibility. I do not have any easy answers, but I do understand your struggle to make sense of this. I went through something like that when I was pregnant with my daughter. In the end he came back only to leave me again for an affair with another woman. It hurt but somehow I managed. From what I read in your post, you are strong and you will be all right. Things like this make no sense and I am not sure that there is a real answer to the question why. Perhaps he will come to his senses and come back and face up to his responsibilities but there is no guarantee. My heart just goes out to you

Hugs --- Larissa