Another lonley night in the house i used to share with him. its so hard to accept that i have to feel this deep hurt and emptyness, theres nothing else to do but grieve, im so afraid im gonna feel like this forever. how long does it take for a person who has been with someone for 4yrs to be herself again, to feel happy and not hollow and lonley. having bipolar makes this break up so hard, the feelings are so intense and heavy. its like the world around me has grown dark and uninviting. i keep thinking of the how different my life is and is going to be without him. i feel so lost, i dont know how to live my life without him. I lost a boyfriend and a best friend. I dont have any close friends to talk to. But I know i did the right thing by ending it, but that doesnt make it hurt any less. I'm just trying to put one foot in front of the other, I dont know what else to do.

the nights are the worst.

morethingswrong- your kindness means so much thanks