Thank you for your reply. You're definitely right. I do need to see a therapist. I've actually been thinking about therapy a lot lately and doing research on the craft. I haven't decided yet which type of therapy would be best for me. I'm certainly no expert.
I've actually tried speaking to a few so called professionals with hilariously bad results. Granted, these people were social workers paid by various institutions and obviously lacking the passion, resources, and drive to help me. I guess it's true what they say: You get what you pay for.
I live in a fairly small town but am moving in mid November to Australia...Melbourne, to be exact. I was planning on splurging on some iron-clad health insurance and maybe then I can find someone good. I can only imagine that there will be much better variety in a city with a population in the millions. Oddly enough, I feel like I'd like to have a male therapist. I'm not sure if that's weird or wrong or what...
Anyway, thanks for the support!