I do love my therapist, but I've never told her that. I don't think I've ever said it to anyone in my entire life, now that I stop to think about it. I have told her that she means a lot to me. I'm having a really hard time (bit of a long story) and I don't know if I'll be brave enough, but I really want to tell her at my next appointment that it will be my last. I'll probably be too pathetic and change my mind before then. If I manage to end it, I'd like her to know how I feel...even if it doesn't really matter to her. I think the only way I'll be brave enough to say it, is if it's the last time I ever see her. I know (I feel it) that she doesn't feel the same way about me, but that's okay. She has told me that she cares, and I know that's true. So, maybe I'll be brave enough to say it to the first person I've felt that way about, on the last day I'll ever see them. Silly, really.