That's why I spend I think, something to look forward to. Because I don't go outside , or to the post office, my husband picks up the ail. Then I get in trouble. I buy purses. I'm selling some of them on eBay, I have so any!! But things are slw at work for my husband so I HAVE to stop! Books - I have so many I haven't read yet. I need to ake myself pick one up and read!! Then give them away.... I have over 100, 10 Bibles.... I use to love to read!! I just get so depressed all the things I use to love to do I knw longer do. Walk, read, scrapbook.... I've gained so much weight. I have a treadmill and don't use it.... I think I want to live but most of the time I don't feel like it.

Thank you for the reply to my thread. I feel like you knw what I'm going through. As for going out alone - I actually end up in the ER because I have sever pains like a heart attack - sever sweating, chest pains, can't breath, shake, pain up my neck, into my aw so bad I can't talk.... My husband had a real heart attack a year ago, but he's fine now. I recognized the signs only he never had chest pains.... Anyway, I can't leave the house unless I'm with my husband.

Thank you! Hugs!!