Thanks, y'all.

You know, even being a nurse doesn't mean I know it all. I have this annoying tendency to go slack-jawed stupid when faced with my own health problems, and that's where I'm at right now. I really haven't completely accepted my bipolar dx, so I imagine that makes all this even more difficult than it already is.......maybe deep down, I think that accepting it means surrendering to it and allowing it to be part of me.

Which, of course, it is, but while I can deal with that intellectually, no one seems to be able to explain it to my heart.