A few weeks ago, I told T I wanted to quit and somehow that question went off the radar and now I realise T has pushed me towards addressing some of the stuff I haven't been able to talk about before - hmm clever.

Maybe it was to make it more "exciting" for me, did T think my reasons for quitting was because it was feeling stale?

We started to look at something, then last week I had a really tough week (the weekends when my kids are not with me are always a struggle), plus work has been pressured and when I saw T, my head spin was back in full force. T managed to help me slow it down, but I did not want to carry on looking at the difficult stuff, I knew I would just dissociate.

So this week, I am feeling fairly blah about the whole T thing, like I really can't be bothered anymore and my day to day memory is really bad right now.

Now I am telling myself there is no point in going to see T unless I want to, unless I can start looking at this difficult stuff. But when I think about going, I know I just don't want to even talk to T right now, it just seems an effort and I just want some peace and quiet.

Does there have to be a level of motivation for T to be successful, or at times like these is my brain just crying out for a bit of slack and a break?