MsRS

I'm so sorry to hear about your co-workers.

Seven of my husband's co-workers were on that same plane.

You said:

I think if you compare my situation with someone who has had a family member killed and the killer never caught. It takes a long time to get over that and you never completely recover

Pain and sadness is a very personal matter and cannot be compared. Two people can suffer the same loss and react in totally different ways. Your pain and suffering matter just as much as anyones.

Are you seeing a therapist? PTSD needs attention.

We're here to listen and lend a shoulder to lean on.

Welcome to PC.