What do you do when the sleeping pills you usually take to help you go to bed don't work anymore?

I feel so much anxiety. I feel so sad, I'm pathetic.

I think I would feel tired, I work two jobs; one full time and one part time to help pay the bills.

My friends have drifted away from my because of my depressed mood all the time. My bf is getting fed up with me being so difficult to please and make happy. My psych is done seeing with me. No help no more.

I don't know why, but I can't just smile and be happy. It sounds so simple. I'm so stupid, I can't authentically smile.

I feel like I'm so wrong inside. Like I can't be normal and feel "pleased", or "happy" or "pleasured". It's like I'm always angry or depressed.

The pills help me feel better. Help me sleep. Takes everything away. Makes me forget. Now they don't seem to work as much anymore. I have no one to turn to. I don't know what to do.

I don't want to take any MORE pills. I think 2 at a time is enough but... I don't want to start on 3 a day, then needing to go to 4 a day just to get the same affect.