I can relate to only having one true friend. I am also thankful for is having people to relate to on this site, I just joined but I feel I am talking to many friends My ability to make friends is not so bad, however, keeping them is another story. I have lost at least 40 friends in my lifetime...when I think about some of them and how close we used to be, it's hard. I do believe it's way past the point of being able to salvage anything we had. Either too much time has passed or I exploded at them. Because I trained myself to be skeptical of people, I jump to conclusions too and explode at people, or simply cut them off when I suspect they are using me or talking behind my back, even if they aren't. Because of my bouts of depression I can be so negative, I don't like being around people anymore because I feel guilty afterwards of the things I can say about myself and other people...it's hard to relate to people now at my age (28) when my old friends are getting married or engaged and have this ideal life, when I am all holed up at home and alone...wow...so my point is lol...clouds_and_sun, you are not alone. Sorry for my rant btw.