Hi clouds_and_sun....I'm so sorry about your situation, and I get it, because I've come to a place where I really only have one person that I can call a friend. And although we've know each other for many years, we'll never be super close. Then there's one other person who I consider a rather close friend, but I'm never really clear on where she stands. Over the past 15 years or so I've lost pretty much all of my friends....old ones....new ones, online ones, etc. Sometimes it was more my decision, sometimes theirs, but with the same results....I'm pretty alone and isolated most of the time. So, I realize this doesn't change anything with you, except that....along with the other responses....you know you're not at all alone. Warm wishes to you....