It has been brutally difficult. I cannot get out of bed in the morning. I have no identity.

I am on three medications for depression and OCD. The medications barely seem to help. I am bored and alone most of the time. I do not believe that I will be able to secure a job which I so desperately need. I have lost the will to fight. I am burned out and have been for a long time. People say there is always hope, but I have given up. Why is life this way? What can I do?

Then I look at other people and they appear happy. They do not struggle with life the way I do. They are not financially ruined the way I am.

There is nothing anybody can say except “sorry you are going through tough times.” And yes, go outside and exercise.

It appears all so hopeless. It is late in life for me (not that I am an old man). Maybe too late to correct the problems. Am I doomed to sit alone every day? I am in serious trouble. The pain is horrendous. What am I doing wrong? What can I do to change my life?