I have felt the same way, needing a hug to help recover and not receiving it. Apparently, my husband's family never hugged. I might have grown up with abuse, but we also hugged, which has me in conflict when I hear from my doctor that I wasn't loved. I guess it's not knowing how to show love when you've grown up with severe abuse (like my mother).

I understand how you feel, things go bad and then there's conflict and the PTSD is compounded by the combination of anxiety and conflict, also a lack of empathy (husbands who don't know how to show support). I have lost days to feeling horrible, something triggers the angst, there is conflict and then the lack of support makes it worse, or as you described "touching the car doors and shaking it when the alarm is already blaring and I can bearly think it is so loud."

I have not tried to explain how I feel to my husband. I had a flashback in a restaurant and ran off, he got mad, yet I wasn't aware that it was a flashback until I told my therapist (doctor).

I don't know how I managed to turn on italics by typing on the wrong keys? Hmmm this is new.

Well, keep describing your feelings, I think it's helpful to everyone on the forum. I have not had luck describing PTSD to anyone but my doctor, and those on this forum understand.

Take care, zzzcat