Hello all,

For Awhile I thought things were going fine, and its true that certain aspects of my life are good, my love life is good, my education is good, my family is good, so there are a lot of things that are good in my life. But there is a big gaping hole in my life that is empty, because all of my friends are either moving/gone or out of state/ mad at me/ dont make the effort to see me.

One of my friends just up and moved without warning, i just found this out 2 days ago through his blog, and I'm feeling really upset. Another friend of mine from high school is moving to louisiana in a few months with her fiance, another friend of mine is mad at me because I couldn't attend her out of state wedding, because I didnt have the money, and everyone else is away for the summer. I still have my boyfriend and his friends, but, its not the same, I feel like everyone should have their own group of friends. I love my boyfriend, but I am feeling a different kind of lonliness. I am just sad. Since school has been out, all I've been doing is working full time in a library basement, where everyone is twice my age. Dont get me wrong, everyone is really nice, but there aren't any opportunities to make friends my own age.

I have a hard time making friends as it is, for some reason. I am just shy, and I think I come off as mean or stand-offish, and I dont know why, but its really hard for me to make friends during the semester as well. I am just so lonely, all i do is work and come home, or go to my boyfriends, and like i said, I love my boyfriend, but I need to have time with friends too.

I am just so sad...so lonely...so upset...and my summer is full of nothing but work...what should I do?

emo