Please know you aren't responsible for your husband. He is responsible for his own actions. I know you love him but he is manipulating you with fear of him hurting himself. That isn't love. He isn't yours to save. If he wants to hurt himself, he will find a way. You can only take care of yourself (and your kids if you have any). I know it's hard but you need a safe place to stay. Be careful as he clearly isn't thinking straight and may hurt you as well. I pray peace for you and your family.