I was raped almost two years ago and every since I have had this obsession with rape. I read books about people being raped and watch movies with really graphic rape scenes and look up stuff about it on the web and watch anything with rape in it. i don't know why and I feel like I am crazy because though those disturb me and me feel like I am reliving it or really queasy or sad, I can't help but watch or read about it. I pick up anything that has to do with rape even though I can't even speak about my own experience without freezing up or not being able to go any further. I have never even been able to discuss the full details with anyone because it feels like I am reliving it, I have nightmares about being raped and am scared of the dark. I talk to a therapist but it doesn't seem to help. I can't get rape off my mind. It is constantly there like a creepy obsession I can not get rid of. I don't know what's wrong with me or what I should do.