I had an appt on Saturday and took a list of things that have been going on for me. I was honest and I found that I can open up to her (she is the nurse practitioner at the office) vs the pdoc who happened to be out on vacation.

She actually identified that I am probably dealing with generalized anxiety which is causing a lot of my indecision, mood swings, and thoughts of suicide. It's more that I am apathetic rather than looking toward being suicidal, if that makes any sense. She explained it much better than I can.

She suggested that I touch base with my counselor and make reoccurring appts. I kinda got better and stopped meeting with her. I just never seemed to re-establish my sessions. Maybe I was in denial that I needed to continue with talk therapy. Idk.

Anyhow. We increased my medicine and hopefully within a week or two, I will start to feel better. I just want to feel better. Not sure why I'm posting,it there is list t the end of the tunnel for me.