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I go through this from time to time, especially when I'm in a bad spot. I get so jealous. Even of my fiance spending time with his family. Typically I don't show the jealousy because I know it's me that's the problem not him but I can't help feeling that way.
All day today, to me he's seemed distant. Makes me wonder. I trust him but I can't stop those "what if" thoughts. Then he calls me an hour and a half ago saying he was coming to my work, but when he doesn't show (and he's only 5 minutes away) for a long time I call and no answer. Then I call back and he answers and is all weird on the phone. Probably me over reacting but I can't help it.
I'm screwed up but I can't help it. I don't know how to fix myself. I'm tired of feeling this way. It nearly ruined the relationship before, and I'm going back to the jealous freak out chick again. I hate this... I have no reason to doubt him other than small minimal things when we first started dating, but since we got serious he's never given me reason to doubt him, yet I still have trouble trusting... I don't know what to do...
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I'd lock my hands behind my head, I'd cover my heart and hit the deck, I'd brace myself for the impact if I were you.
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