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I do have a t, have been seeing him about 2 months now, but there is so much going on with me right now I just can't find the time to bring up many things. I have a long list of topics to bring up but we haven't put a dent in them yet. I've had a complete and total break down in May and am picking myself up again, that's the reason for my latest trust issues. Every time I stumble in my mental health, so does my trust and feeling of security. I fell pretty hard in May and have been working so hard to put myself back together but I'm far far far from perfect.
I try to put on my happy face but my fiance knows when I'm upset. I blamed it on this migraine I've had all day but he's hesitant to believe that because with most migraines my mood doesn't change. I know it's me, I just don't know how to control it and how to stop feeling this way.
I have trouble trusting men, that's a big part of my therapy now, the abuse I went through involving men, but I know I can trust my fiance, he's so much different than any man I've met, I just don't know how to tell my feelings this...
I will try to bring it up with t on Thursday when I meet with him but he already has plans of our next discussion, about empowering myself and such. So much to work on, I'm a mess... I don't want it to ruin my relationship.
Thank you kindly for your response, I really appreciate it...
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