((((Silent)))) you are the most important part of the equation here. If your T is not available (do you know why?), and you are not feeling well, can you get a referral for another T.?

also I have a ? regarding the meds you were taking...did you taper off supervised or just stop cold turkey? I ask because stopping cold can be very dangerous.

It is important to speak with someone IRL if you've been depressed, are starting to feel "blah", and are starting to isolate. Or if you are feeling neglected or abandoned. Please do call.

I am not sure what you meant by being caught off guard by things.

Please do not give up on yourself or your full recovery. And keep posting and let us know how you are doing.

Rose