@whimsygirl-sometimes my faith is the only thing that keeps me from going insane. please know I am also a realist and know how intense mental illness can be. I have a bipolar (horribly violent when I was growing up) father, a teenage son who battles depression and has for 10 years. He is currently on 3 medications that need to be tweaked again. I think without knowing the good Lord understands my crazy heart and mind, I would probably just become statics and take the easy way out. I refuse to repeat my family's history with my own children.