I know this is me just trying to run away, I'm really an expert at flighting out of the flight out fight response.

This is the first time she's ever had to cancel an session in the 7 ish months I've been seeing her. She didn't give details as to why just said something unexpected came up and unfortunately couldn't make it. Offered to reschedule but I never said anything to follow through on that.

I was taking the meds to help with anxiety but I never felt they were working that well. In fact I thought they were making me depressed, where depression had never been a big issue for me. I'm horribly horribly anxious speaking to doctors and want able to get my feeling of it not working across to either if the two doctors I saw (these were gp not pdocs). The first one -the doc on college campus- seemed really big on the Lexapro specifically. The second one didn't seem big on meds at all. I didn't stop cold turkey, I did taper down very very slowly.