((((((((canders)))))))))))))))) I am so sorry that you are feeling like this right now, to me being depressed in the summer is the absolute worse thing for me. I wish for many do overs also as I have made some pretty big mistakes in my life, but please know that you have friends here who will listen and be here when you need them. Please take care and though we don't know each other we will someday soon. Take care of yourself.. Linda