As hard as it is, when we lose time it sometimes means that we have to suspend our own disbelief when it comes to what our alters may have done or said. We know WE wouoldn't have done or siad those things.... but our alters sometimes do and say things that are quite abhorrent to us.
How does it feel to consider the possiblility that one of your alters did say those things and did (or does) have an obsession with that t?