I am screaming... silently.... the moods, anxiety, and depression are eating away at me.. if I were to rant loudly what goes on in my head and heart it might go something like: I hate my life! I hate feeling trapped! I am angry at myself!!!! and everyone else! I dont have choices, nor could I make them if I did!!!!! I dont have a life, I dont have friends!!!! how is this me?!?! I used to have friends.... I cant express myself!! I am controlled!! I cant control myself!!! I am angry!! I am depressed! I am not the me I hoped to be!!!!!! I feel Lost and Lonely!!!!