I am so sorry to hear what your husband did to you. I know its devastating and none of us here can comprehend how you are feeling going through all this. Im going to be on the of the posters who say your husband is selfish mean ya da da. You have to remember you have to be strong. Not just for you but your future kid. You know the feeling of not being wanted and being deserted but your future child doesnt know that feeling. You have to be strong and be sure your child is loved almost as much as you loved your husband. Those feelings of rejection are 10X stronger for someone who is going to be so young in such a cold world.

Don't lose faith either you are loved. I hope someone who can help you push through these feelings that i cant possibly understand but I really hope this post helps in some way