I can't let go of my reaction to this, ie the fact that I HAD a personal reaction to it, that I could say, I have someone in my life who would NOT say that to me. I have never had that kind of moral certainty before. I always had to excuse away that kind of insult, that kind of bad behavior. "They don't know what they're talking about about, they don't understand MY side of the story, they don't know the TRUE me." WRONG. They know as much as they are ever going to know, and this IS their opinion of you. So - ARE you, am I a stupid girl? Only if I stick around for more of their nonsense. Which, when it's your FAMILY, puts you in a very tough situation. Stay, and be stupid; leave and be alone - but smart? Very hard choice. And since A. was on the phone to HIS mommy first thing the next morning, I bet that's the same deal she offered her sonny boy. Maybe that explains the wavery quavery voice the night before, the relief the morning after. Anyway, point is, I am so glad that my first reaction is that I can hold my T's love for me in my heart, it's not just a vague feeling, as it was before, of, gee, maybe that's not right - which is what my parents were.