Things have just been hectic lately. Everything around me seems to just be falling apart. I no longer have a counselor or a psychiatrist, and I've even tried to get new ones and for some reason my doctor never fills out the referral form right and when I just go in asking for a new one because mine moved hospitals they tell me they won't just give me new ones even though I have a file stating I need them, and got abandon by other one.
To top that off I don't even have any friends to even talk to right now, they're all going through so much that I don't feel it right to talk to them about myself. They all keep coming to me with their problems and a few of them have been admitted recently. It leaves me with no one to talk to, and I can't even talk to my partner because she's struggling like crazy too with her eating disorder, and has a bunch of her family bombarding her about it and threatening to take her in to the hospital without even talking to her about it first.
Even if I did have someone to talk to I don't even think I'd be able to talk about myself and how I'm feeling because I'm to focused on everyone else just to keep me distracted from myself. I don't even know what's going on with me because I've lost myself in everyone else.
I just don't know any more.. I don't know how to deal with it all I can't even keep my thought pattern straight, my thought pattern is so scrambled that I can walk into the bathroom and forget what I'm in there for, I just can't keep my thoughts straight.
This is long enough though and probably doesn't make much sense. Thanks for letting me get some of this out..