That's pretty much how i felt when I was told what my parents did was physical abuse... I didn't believe it for a while. I had myself convinced that I made a big deal out of nothing, and that somehow they didn't understand what really happened, or even that I had somehow lied to them. I was told this at age 17 after being abused my whole childhood. I am 24 now and do believe it was abuse now. But over the past few years I have been battling it. Every time I talk about it in T, it becomes more clear that what happened was abuse. I was spanked a lot and my physical abuse was mostly from "punishment" going too far. I was also emotionally/verbally abused. You have a long hard road ahead of you, but I am here if you want to talk.